Family and Waiting

We were really busy this past weekend with family.  We spent most of the day Saturday with Erik’s family, his nephew spent the night with us and we had lunch at my parents’ house after church on Sunday.  (The lunch was in celebration of my dad’s birthday which was earlier this month).  My parents had a full house!....  16 of us, to be exact.  J

I really enjoy family time.  I love how close we are, the laughs, the food, the memories, the music, etc.  I especially love my nieces and nephews running around.  On Sunday, my 12 year old niece said, “Hey- I heard you had to take your baby to the emergency room!!?”  Then my 10 year old niece quickly ran over with the most excited expression I’ve ever seen and said, “YOU GOT A BABY?!?!?!”

Bless it.  My 12 year old niece was actually referring to Zoe, our dog.  (see previous post about her injury… by the way- she’s on the road to recovery!)  Oh, and my 12 year old niece made Zoe a Get Well Card.  So precious.

Waiting on our baby is always on my mind.  Of course it’s nice to know that it’s on our family’s mind as well….  But in another way it’s painful.  In this situation for instance, having to tell my little niece that, “No, honey, we haven’t gotten a baby yet” and to watch disappointment completely wash over her…. makes me ache.  It’s sweet.  But it’s sad.

(Sigh)…..

It also makes me sad when I think about how my sister and I used to talk about how one day we’d be taking vacations together with our husbands and small children.  I know we can still take vacations together but her children are already 12, 10 and 5.  To put a positive spin on it, I guess her children could be babysitting ours on our vacations.

(Sigh)…..  Okay, moving on….    

April 20 marked “1 Month Waiting”.  (You know, “officially” waiting).  This month really flew by!  We’re still super busy with “controlling the wait”.  We’re kind of on track with P90X. J  We stayed on track pretty well even through our minor injuries but I got sick last week (a cold and sore throat).  I skipped 2 days of workouts so I’m doubling up this week.  WOWZER!!  Tonight’s workout was a DOOZY!!

Having said that, I’m spent.  Clean sheets are on the bed and are calling my name. J  Have a wonderful week, friends.

“…we are happy because of the hope we have of sharing God's glory.  We also have joy with our troubles, because we know that these troubles produce patience.  And patience produces character, and character produces hope.  And this hope will never disappoint us, because God has poured out his love to fill our hearts…” ~Romans 5:2-5 NCV     

P90X and Projects

Whew!  I am TIRED!!  But I felt like I should do a quick blog post since I haven’t checked in in almost 2 weeks.  J

Let me tell you- - April got off to a rough start!  Erik strained a muscle in his neck/back on Day 3 of P90X.  On Day 9, I strained my calf muscle.  On Day 12, Zoe (our DOG) had to be taken to the animal ER and she has a slipped disc in her back and torn soft tissue!  (Clearly, she’s not doing our exercise routine but the timing of her injury was wild.)  The vet said this type of injury is common in small dogs.  Any wrong twist or jump can cause damage to their spine! L She is recovering well but it’s very hard to follow the vet’s orders (keep her confined to her crate or small area for 14 days, no running, no jumping).  She’s super pitiful. 

Rascal (our cat) is so sweet and seems concerned about her.  He doesn’t leave her alone for long.  He stays close and just watches her.  Bless it. 

Erik and I on the other hand have fully recovered from our minor injuries.  J  Hopefully we’ve found the balance of “bringing it” while working out and “pacing ourselves”.  So, now we’re on Day 16 of P90X and we’re getting stronger and our endurance is increasing!  YAY!  We don’t really know how much weight we’ve lost because our scale is fluctuating.  We can weigh 3 times in a row and get 3 different readings.  Oh well.  At least we FEEL different!  J

We haven’t heard anything from our adoption agency and don’t really expect to until we get THE call!  We’re still praying that that call comes SOON!!  (YOUR prayers are appreciated too!!)….  Like I mentioned in my last post, we’re staying busy “controlling the wait”. 

*The first weekend in April we re-did our landscaping.  (oh my!! What a JOB!!!!)  It was Easter weekend and we spent some time that Sunday with family. 

*This past weekend we cleaned, I did my niece’s hair and make-up for prom, I sang with a band Saturday night (got home at 2am) and Erik and I sang on the praise team at church Sunday morning. 

Some projects that we have planned for the upcoming weekends are as follows:

*Plant flowers and a tree

*Pressure-wash the house

*Stain the deck

*Paint shutters

*Paint baby’s room

Of course among our busy schedules we have to squeeze in at least an hour a day for our P90X workout.  Oh- - not to mention we’re trying to follow their nutrition plan too.  That’s harder and can be more time consuming than the actual workouts!

Well, thanks for reading this mundane post!  Haha!  Our lives are busy but pretty normal right now.  I feel like we’re preparing ourselves and our home for a VERY special guest….. but a PERMANENT guest!!  So exciting....  I LOVE IT!!

"Dreams get you into the future and add excitement to the present." ~Robert Conklin

Have a great rest of the week, friends!

Controlling the Wait

Hi friends!!  I’ve been pretty absent from the “online world” lately.  Not intentionally- - I just go through phases like this.  J 

Unfortunately I have no new adoption news…..  We’re still WAITING!! 

As we were preparing to wait, we got told over and over by our adoption agency, “YOU control the wait.  Don’t let the wait control you.”  In other words, don’t sit around and wait….  Actively wait.

We have plenty of things in mind to keep us busy (I mean- - LIFE is busy enough, right?!).  We are saving for baby furniture, shopping for baby furniture, brain-storming about decorating ideas for the baby's room, shopping for paint colors, planning a vacation, etc.  We were planning on painting the baby’s room as soon as we got approved…… but we haven’t bought the paint yet…..  We will soon! 

You see, Erik’s birthday was March 24.  And you know what he wanted????  P90X.  Are you aware of this workout program?!  If not, you should look it up.  It is INTENSE!!!!  I decided if he was going to do this and get in better shape that I was going to join him!  It’s a DVD workout program that you do at home.  Erik was content with the idea of us doing it in our living room.  Not me.  Haha….  I wanted to transform our garage into a little gym!  J  Here’s a picture….

I also made some posters for motivation to hang in the garage/gym.  (the pic above was taken before I hung the posters)…  Here’s a few of the posters:

I made others that say- - “No excuses”, “No compromises”, “Bring It!”

We started on April 1.  And let me tell you- - it’s kicking our tails!!!!  I mean, for real.  We are literally sweating and out of breath before the WARM UP is over!!  Oh and let's not even talk about how stinkin' SORE we are!!!!  Surely we’ll be in good shape when this is all over...  It’s a 90 Day Program…We’re praying we can stick with it... surely we can!  J

Thank you for staying in touch with us!  I will keep you posted on our P90X progress and OF COURSE on any adoption news! 

I hope you all are well!  Have a great rest of the week!       

Happy Spring and Happy Waiting!!

The very "first day" of things are always exciting to me.   You know, new beginnings….  fresh starts….  renewed hopes….etc.  J  Well, today was the first day of Spring AND the first day of us officially WAITING!!  We were officially “approved” to adopt on March 17 but we were actually added to the book of waiting families TODAY!!!! 

So, as of TODAY, March 20, 2012 we are WAITING!!

Let me explain this process real quick…..

First, the birthmothers receive counseling from our adoption agency.  Once they are ready to choose an adoptive family, they look at 1 notebook.  This notebook is full of mini profiles of all of the waiting families.  A mini profile consists of 1 picture of the couple/family, a summary of their personalities, hobbies, community, jobs, and a summary of what they are “open” to (i.e. the child’s race, gender, medical conditions, etc).  (I’m not sure exactly how many waiting families there are at this moment.  The last time I asked I think there were 28).

From that notebook of all the waiting families, the birthmothers decide who they’d like to see more information on.  We’ve been told they usually select their top 3-5 choices.  At that point, they’re able to see the Family Profiles on each of their “top” choices (scrapbook type books including the letters to the birthmother). 

The waiting families are not contacted or informed of the times they’re viewed.  They are only contacted when they’ve been chosen.  This is basically to cut back on the emotional rollercoaster.  Can you imagine getting a call that, “you’re one of 3 families that have been selected” …. Then later getting a follow up call, “oh- but they chose one of the other families.”  Yuck.  So, I’m perfectly fine with just getting the call saying- - “YOU’VE BEEN CHOSEN!!”  J 

So, from here there is no promised timeline.  They say the average wait time is 1-5 years from this point.  I feel like that’s an awfully broad average myself!  But they say some families have been chosen in 2 months and some have waited 5 years.  There doesn’t seem to be any rhyme or reason to it……  Just God’s timing, I guess.  J

We’re very hopeful that we won’t be waiting too long!!  We appreciate your continued prayers and you know I’ll be keeping you posted on what’s going on with us!  We are in an organizing frenzy again!!  (And by “we”…. I actually mean “I”.)  haha!

Have a great week, friends!!  Happy Spring!! 

"The Lord's love never ends; his mercies never stop. They are new every morning; Lord, your loyalty is great. I say to myself, "The Lord is mine, so I hope in him."  Lamentations 3:22-24 NCV

Home Study APPROVED!!

OUR HOME STUDY IS OFFICIALLY APPROVED!!!!!!!!

(Meaning we are OFFICIALLY waiting and birthmoms can now view our profiles!  So- in reality, we could be chosen at ANY moment!!!!)

Here’s a breakdown of important dates to emphasize how great this news is!!!!  (I’ll only start the breakdown of dates from when we turned in our paperwork.)

November 8, 2011: Turned in our Home Study Paperwork

December 22, 2011:  Received call from our caseworker to schedule home visit

January 5, 2012:  Home Visit Completed

January 9, 2012:  Individual Interviews

January 13, 2012:  Last Couples Interview

January 17, 2012:  Ordered Family Profiles

January 24, 2012:  Received Family Profiles via UPS

January 30, 2012:  Delivered Profiles to Adoption Agency

February 7, 2012:  Picked up Profiles to make revisions

February 15, 2012:  Delivered Revised Profiles to Adoption Agency

February 16, 2012: CW submitted home study to director for final approval

MARCH 17, 2012:  HOME STUDY APPROVED!!!!

Thank you SO much for your prayers thus far!!  Y’all- - we’ve needed them AND felt them.  Thank you.  Please continue remembering us and praying for us and our child's/children's birthparents.  Please pray that we’re chosen soon and able to BRING OUR BABY/BABIES HOME SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!  THANK YOU!!!!!!

"Let everything that has breath praise the LORD.  Praise the LORD." Psalm 150:6 NIV

God's Will or Our Desires?

Erik and I desire children so badly and sometimes question if that’s what God has planned for us. 

Even just typing that statement makes me sick. 

But good news!!  God graciously continues to remind me of simple truths in His word.  I’ll share those with you, in hopes that it can encourage you in whatever situation you may be in.  J  (Also, I can reference this post when I’m having “one of those days”.) 

Alright- - the gist is:

*Through prayer, we can have confidence in our desires, trusting and believing that we are indeed desiring God’s will for our lives.

Now, I do believe this is a process.  It is sometimes hard to discern what is our self-seeking desire and what is the righteous path that God has laid before us.  When we have a hard time discerning the difference, the only things we can do is turn to God in prayer, lean on His word and examine our hearts.  This is first and foremost.  If we are truly seeking Him, and I mean whole heartedly seeking…. then I believe His will becomes clear.

“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2 NIV

When we reach that clarity with a great deal of peace, then the challenge is remaining focused on the following truths so Satan doesn’t deceive us into questioning our faith in God.     

1.) Remember:  We are holy and blameless children of God through Jesus Christ!

“… In Christ, God has given us every spiritual blessing in the heavenly world. That is, in Christ, he chose us before the world was made so that we would be his holy people—people without blame before him.  Because of his love, God had already decided to make us his own children through Jesus Christ.”  Ephesians 1:3-5 NCV

“…He has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation— if you continue in your faith, established and firm, and do not move from the hope held out in the gospel…”  Colossians 1:22-23 NIV

“…Now that you are obedient children of God do not live as you did in the past. You did not understand, so you did the evil things you wanted. But be holy in all you do, just as God, the One who called you, is holy. It is written in the Scriptures: "You must be holy, because I am holy." I Peter 1:13-16 NCV

2.)  Remember:  God wants us to be confident in and BELIEVE what we are praying about!

“But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.” James 1:6-7 NIV

“If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”  Matthew 21:22 NIV

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”  Luke 11:9-10 NIV

“Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4 NIV

“So when you pray, you should pray like this:  'Our Father in heaven, may your name always be kept holy.  May your kingdom come and what you want be done, here on earth as it is in heaven.’ ” Matthew 6: 9-10 NCV

 “… The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.” James 5:16 NIV

3.)  Remember:  God’s plans are even better than our own!!

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”  Jeremiah 29:11 NIV

“Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.”  Ephesians 3:20 NLT

“We know that in everything God works for the good of those who love him.”  Romans 8:28 NCV

4.)  Remember:  Be happy!

“Be cheerful no matter what; pray all the time; thank God no matter what happens. This is the way God wants you who belong to Christ Jesus to live.”  I Thessalonians 5:16-19 MSG

God is GREAT and He loves us, y’all!  Let’s be confident in who we are IN HIM and focus on the goodness of the Lord.  J  …..  Have a great rest of the week, friends!

"We have to pray with our eyes on God, not on the difficulties." ~Oswald Chambers     

My "Ah-ha! Moment"

Let’s not beat around the bush here…. 

I’ve been very discouraged lately.  I’ve been questioning what God was doing, wondering “where” He is and flat out distancing myself from Him.  My prayer life was becoming…. stale.  I am not proud of all of this.  But I am very happy to be speaking about this in PAST tense!  Whew!

Alright, I am aware that the world does not revolve around me.  I do, however believe that we have to pay very close attention to what God is doing around us and listen to what He’s teaching us.  He may use one thing to teach each one of us a different lesson.  That’s part of the beauty and magnitude of the God we serve.  Incredible. 

So here is the story of my…..  “Ah-ha! moment”….

On Thursday evening (March 1), my newsfeed on Facebook was full of comments about “extreme severe weather” coming to our town the next afternoon.  News was spreading fast that storm chasers were catching flights to Middle Tennessee, someone from the Weather Channel was coming to the Nashville area and our “Tor:Con index” was a 7 (meaning we had a 70% chance of destructive tornadoes within a 50 mile radius). 

This “Tor:Con index” increased to a 9 on Friday (March 2)- - meaning there was now a 90% chance that we would have tornadoes!  The radar for Middle TN was almost completely red, showing waves of storms coming straight for us.  Local news stations and the Weather Channel were saying we had a “severe threat for long track violent tornadoes” and “Quick action may need to be taken during this severe weather outbreak to protect your life”. 

Whaaaaaaat?!  I had never heard such panic and mayhem from meteorologists!  90% chance of tornadoes?!  And long track tornadoes?!  Storm chasers?? HERE?!

I was scared.

Erik was at work and I made a game plan to pack up Rascal and Zoe, grab my emergency kit and head to my dear friend’s house so we could seek shelter together.  (By the way:  my emergency kit included our wedding photos and video, honeymoon pictures, marriage certificate, birth certificates, passports and my Bible.  J  haha!  Maybe next time I should throw in some water or something!)

My nerves were shot.  I was on and off the phone with different family members, Erik and a few friends.  We were all making plans and giving each other advice…. “cushion your safe room”, “grab a flashlight”, “make sure your phone is charged”, etc.

In the midst of my panic, something came over me- - an extremely peaceful confidence.  Something clicked.  I knew that we were going to be fine.  I was on the phone with a friend and told him that I was “confident that the storms were going to miraculously miss us altogether.”

I still packed up Rascal and Zoe, grabbed my “emergency kit” and headed to my friend’s house.  We watched TV and the radar was still showing all of those storms coming at us from the southwest.  Tornadoes were touching down in nearby cities going at least 60 mph.  We were under tornado watches and warnings but I just knew we were not going to experience a tornado.

I prayed to God like I haven’t prayed to Him in a while.  Instead of asking God to spare us from the storm it was more like- - “wow, God, thank You so much!  I know we’re going to be fine!”  And I believed it!  Without a doubt!!  I feel like God was telling me, “Remember me?  Remember this relationship of ours?  This peace?  It is yours.  It always has been and always will be.”

“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” ~Mark 11:24 NIV

“Do not worry about anything, but pray and ask God for everything you need, always giving thanks. And God's peace, which is so great we cannot understand it, will keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” ~Philippians 4:6-7 NCV

This was it!!  This was what I’d been missing!!  How did this faith slip away from me?!  I used to have this confidence in God but somehow, like I mentioned before, it had become stale.  My prayers had become stale AND my faith had become stale.

I do not know exactly how this renewal of faith came over me.  But what I do know is this:  in order for God to wake me up from my life of stagnant faith, He had to do something big. 

God used that powerful storm for other purposes, no doubt, but I know He also used it to renew my faith and teach me a lesson.  All odds were against us.  Storms WERE coming.  The atmosphere was in perfect condition to formulate disastrous tornadoes.  There was NOTHING I could do about it.

Then- - the storms came.  They were violent and unpredictable.  But we were protected.  We were spared. 

God reminded me of His great power.  He controls those massive storms.  His hand is on everything.  He has a purpose for everything. 

“For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven.” ~Ecclesiastes 3:1 NLT    

If I can trust Him in a MASSIVE, uncontrollable storm, surely to goodness I can trust Him with my life!  We may not have a literal radar for our lives like on the weather channel but this I know for sure…..  our struggles, hurts and disappointments (our “storms”) in life are only passing through.  We may not see them coming or be able to track them but does it matter??  Those “storms” are temporary!  God has PROMISED us better days!! 

“”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. “” ~Jeremiah 29:11 NIV         

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” ~Romans 8:28 NIV

Of course God blessed us with the most gorgeous day full of bright sunshine and blue skies the day after the storm.  Fitting, huh?  J  

God is huge, powerful, in control, good, loving, faithful and generous.  Peace only comes from trusting in Him and surrendering to His will.

In my next post I’ll talk more about how we can be confident in our prayers to God.  God’s reminded me of simple truths from his word- - I hope I’m able to encourage you with His reminder.  J

Happy Sunday friends!!!!