Change

I love how all of the leaves are changing to beautiful bright colors!  Each fall season I can never decide if the orange or red leaves are my favorite.  J 

The past couple of days I’ve found myself reflecting a lot on change in general.  You know that quote:  “The only thing constant in life is change”?  That is very true about lots of things.  I change a lot myself.   My priorities change, my friendships change, my goals and desires change, my perspective changes, etc. 

My moods/emotions are ever changing about everything, especially our adoption process.  I think change is good, but it can also be exhausting. 

We recently explored another adoption agency to “just see” what they were like.  They were basically the very opposite of our current agency.  They promise a shorter wait time (which is OF COURSE super appealing) and seem like a great company……  BUT they turn away 90% of the birthmothers that come to them (to ensure they place only healthy babies). 

We just couldn’t shake that.  This company basically says that we could adopt a baby in about 5 months.  WOW.  We. Want. Our. Baby. SOON!!!!  BUT- - - - - -  it is not about us.  It is not about us.  It is not about us.  ……….  (We have to remind ourselves of that a lot).  It is not JUST about US getting OUR baby.  It’s about taking care of the birthmother TOO.  It’s about accepting any child that God has planned for us.  It’s about following the path that GOD wants us to take. 

We’re glad we talked to this other company.  It really just confirmed in our minds that we’re where we need to be.  Also, we cannot ignore God’s provision for us thus far.  The amounts of money that we’ve received have been so specific to the fees associated with our current adoption agency.  He’s made it clear to us that we’re where we’re supposed to be….. so……….. we are moving forward. 

We have our Expectations Consultation this Friday with our current agency and will then be waiting for them to schedule our home visits.  After our home visits are completed and our home study is “approved” THEN we will be placed on the official waiting list!

I’m happy that we’re not changing adoption agencies.  I’ve always thought I was okay with change but lately it kind of stresses me out.  We’ve “changed” where we worship (aka church) and that was a big deal to me.  Today Erik mentioned “changing” banks and I was like- - “ohhhhhhh…… uhmmmmm.. that stresses me out..….”  He looked at me like I was crazy…  Then I realized I was.  Haha!

You know what I find great comfort in?  That our Lord does not change!!!!!!!!  J 

"I the Lord do not change…”  Malachi 3:6 NCV

“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.”  Hebrews 13:8 NCV     

And a few wonderful reminders:

“The Lord is kind and does what is right; our God is merciful.”  Psalm 116:5 NCV

 “God… does not want anyone to be lost, but he wants all people to change their hearts and lives.”  2 Peter 3:9 NCV

“…God is love.”  I John 4:8 NCV

Ahhhhhh……..  Thank you, Jesus.  J