And I cry

Well, here's that stack of paperwork I keep talking about....

Good news is- - We're finished!!!!

This month we'll have our Expectations Consultation with our agency, our physicals/TB tests, finger-printing, background checks, psychological evaluations and have our last adoption class.  (whew!)  

In other... well, not so "other" news.....  I’m feeling pretty crazy lately. 

I cry on a dime!  Seriously.  

*All of my anger and frustration about the stinkin’ long process of adoption pops up from time to time……  And I cry.

*My heart breaks as soon as the thought enters my mind about how many orphans are in the world……  And I cry.

*I daydream about holding my precious child……  And I cry.

*I get so stinkin’ frustrated about us, as Christians, as the church, not doing more for these children……  And I cry.

*I daydream about what gender, age, race our child will be……  And I cry.

*I sing songs of worship to our Lord praising Him for His plans that are so much greater than my own……  And I cry.

*I wonder if we’ll adopt one child, twins, triplets, a sibling group, etc……  And I cry.

*I think about our child’s birthmother……  And I cry.

*I see little girls playing with their baby dolls and I remember being in their shoes… dreaming of the day I would be a real mommy……  And I cry.

*I get so excited imagining all of the milestones in our child’s life……  And I cry.

*I get emails from our adoption agency with pictures of their “waiting children” (older children and/or medical problems) that need forever families……  And I cry.

You get the gist………..  I’m a mess…………   I think it boils down to the fact that I’m super excited to meet our baby, I wish we could get him/her soon  AND I wish we could just adopt every child in the world that needs a home!!  (sigh)

Something has GOT to be done about this….  so many orphans in the world….  So many babies needing homes….. 

We have to increase awareness and empower each other to ADOPT!! …… 

Please pray with me about this…..  I think God is working on something big in front of our eyes and I want Him to use me where He needs me….  Again- - something more has to be done to defend all of these orphans in the world....  And I say it starts with opening our hearts and homes to one child at a time....

"My child, listen to what I say and remember what I command you.  Listen carefully to wisdom; set your mind on understanding.  Cry out for wisdom, and beg for understanding.  Search for it like silver, and hunt for it like hidden treasure.  Then you will understand respect for the Lord, and you will find that you know God.  Only the Lord gives wisdom; he gives knowledge and understanding.  He stores up wisdom for those who are honest.  Like a shield he protects the innocent.  He makes sure that justice is done, and he protects those who are loyal to him.  Then you will understand what is honest and fair and what is the good and right thing to do."  Proverbs 2:1-9 NCV